it's hot. also i'm growing cacti from seed which is new to me and i'm excited, a few of them are sprouting now. how are you?
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Makes sense to me. When I came out to my brother, I'm glad he asked pushed me to express myself more. Not sure what you want questions about though.
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Its hard changing when you are so used to hiding things, not just from others, but primarily yourself. So many coping mechanism unconsciously formed. I can't provide much help since I've been taking things far slower than I'd recommend to anyone.
What are the things you are feeling most anxious about? Coming out to specific people? General treatment by public? Facing your own thoughts? Figuring out what you want?
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Thanks for the message. Coming out to my parents for sure, though my mom told my partner that she can tell theres some kind of barrier between us. Maybe I should tell her I'm bi first.... Lol.
I'm definitely struggling with knowing what I want/like (in general really) and its no doubt from years of hiding. I have just came out to the first person I wanted to (my partner basically figured it out so I didn't have to tell them lol) and the rest of the day I was so exhausted from the anxiety and sudden ending of the source of it, I could hardly keep my eyes open. I'm feeling less anxious now which is nice, but I think I'll still be worried about treatment by the public.
Ohh, and I'm a national level athlete in a very gendered sport. So thats weighing on me pretty heavily too.
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Can certainly be stressful regardless of how you expect it to go. Best of luck with that.
Always my favorite way to come out to others is not having to.
That sounds really rough. Guess you can't just hide it there. Have you looked in how switching would go?
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So I can hide it for awhile, probably until I have noticable boobs lol. But, its hard to know how hrt will affect my performance. And then there's the issue with if I'm still really competitive, what does that say for trans women in sport? I can solve the coming out problem, but the sport problem is much harder.
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People are sometimes incredibly unaware of things. I think for most people, they have to be un-ignorable for some to notice. Granted, if you aren't overweight and have thin and tight uniforms, that might be a lot earlier.
That was more more concern. A lot of people talk about pretty quickly noticing difference in their physical abilities. Personally, I've been surprised by the lack of drop-off. But I almost never strength train and I think some sports have 2+ year requirements of taking HRT (which I don't meet that requirement).
The fact that its so politicized sucks. Like, even if somehow you disproved all kinds of research suggesting otherwise, I think learning more would be a cool outcome in a vacuum.