MeowZedong

If this is a simulation, it's more likely that every student must experience the same life so that they have an equal understanding of the material. I can also see an alternative where there are a select number of simulated individuals rather than a single one, but it seems much simpler to only use one for ease of development and standardization.

This means the babies that die too early to experience the simulation properly are not students. If the point is also to teach students about life under capitalism and the necessity for socialism, it follows that having this realization during the simulated lifetime is a necessary part of the curriculum. I also know that I am conscious and experiencing the world from my personal perspective.

For these three reasons, I've come to the conclusion that I am likely the life being simulated, meaning all of you are a part of the simulation and have no real consciousness or agency. Even if I only have the illusion of agency, I am the only consciousness being experienced and the most real thing about the simulation.

I saw this in a comment on HB a while back and while the title may not describe you, they discussion about gender within it may be helpful.

How important is your gender identity to you?

Personally, my gender means nothing to me, but I didn't know that for a very long time. I wanted to live my life how I wanted, like what I wanted, present myself how I wanted, but that often contradicts what others expect from me. I've always been frustrated by how much attention others have put on my gender, using it as a weapon to put me down, exclude me, or say I can't do something. To this day it is used to saddle me with expectations I don't want, exclude me from support I need, and judge my platonic relationships with others. It feels like a nose that just won't leave my asshole alone.

You can present yourself in ways and enjoy things that fit outside of the box that others seek to place you in and many people will punish you for this. That's a failure on their part, not yours. From the outside, I appear to be a "normal man" but that is just a shallow description based upon stereotypes that people use to try to understand me. That is not me and that has no bearing on who I am. Only I can define who I am.

For me, trying to fit within the "boxes" of labels is stressful because it feels like I'm masking myself for others, trying to fit their expectations rather than being true to myself. Today, I typically reject these labels and just do what fits me and I am much happier for this. It took me until my thirties to embrace being myself but this does not mean I stopped changing or never question myself. Questioning yourself is how you grow.

Back to you...

Maybe it's a good moment to step back and think about what is important to you. Why are you so focused on your gender identity? Why is it important: is that importance coming from within you or is it a reaction to the world you live in and other people? Are you struggling with other things in life that you cannot control and looking for something you can control?

Exploring these sorts of questions so that you better understand yourself. I'm partially projecting here because I think people have a tendency to get wrapped up in finding labels and fitting in a bit too much. Remember: labels can be helpful for understanding yourself, but they should not define you. People change as they progress through life and identities can change. Questioning yourself is perfectly normal. The answers you come up with to the questions above are valid and don't need to match mine. They need to be a reflection of you.

Your comment about being excited to start hormones but then losing that enthusiasm after your first shot makes me think there might be something else going on? You also may be right in that its just the realities of the journey/nerves setting in. I defer help on that question to someone who is trans and has that experience. Maybe a post asking about others' insecurities when deciding to transition and when beginning that process would give you some insight on how to figure this out?

The most important part of finding peace is to be true to yourself. You can change, you can be inconsistent, you can be unsure, you can fit outside of all the boxes, but you can also fit inside them too. I think you should spend some time reflecting on yourself: explore your emotions and motivations before you continue until you know what you want and why you want it. Read the comments in the HB thread Queercommie shared. If you have the means, seek out a therapist that you feel comfortable with (it took me a few therapists before finding one that fit me) and use their help to explore and better understand yourself (not to get their opinion on your gender). Therapy is not a quick process, but you can't be true to yourself if you don't know and understand yourself. Having some guidance and an impartial person to talk to and ask questions makes this easier.

Most importantly, know that as your comrades we will support you and respect the choices you make even if that means you need to spend some time trying out different things to figure out what best suits you. Our solidarity is not dependent on your gender identity and we will stand by you no matter who you decide you are.

Hormones influence some of the most basic functions in the body, including your "internal thermostat" and metabolism, so it's not too surprising you are getting what feel like strange side effects such as shivering. Chills are a known side effect of estradiol and other hormone treatments but it shouldn't be a dangerous one.

The leg cramps could be caused by both the EE and/or the MCT, but (this is where my experience ends) there are many people who say it's more a matter of your technique when administering. If you haven't looked into proper technique, there are videos on YouTube that could help. I've also heard that subcutaneous injections are less painful for some people.

I saw you told your parents the other day too I think?

Congrats, I hope things continue to go well!

While not the focus, Settlers also covers many aspects of the colonies and revolution and the analysis is closely linked to the sources referenced above.

I agree, but also approach much of what is published with skepticism because there are many factors that can lead to results not being reproducible.

Not that there aren't issues with this idea, but I would like to see peer review change to include another independent lab having to reproduce your experiments as a means to verify the results. The methods you hand over to that lab are the ones that will be published, so if they can't reproduce your results, it stays in review.

Good catch. I didn't see the /f/

I seriously hope our comrades corrected OP on that post. It's Reddit, so I expect this, but there are enough of us still on there to not let this kind of shit slide.

A friend convinced me to get Balatro on my phone. Now my morning reading/Lemmy time has become Balatro time.

I've beaten white stake on all color decks besides Black Deck as well as Abandoned Deck. Once I beat Black Deck, I'll move on to the other magic decks and begin upping stakes unless I get bored.

Everything eventually circles back to RimWorld.

What?! I had no idea a second one was out. The first was pretty good.

I was in the same boat.

Spent all day cooking and listening to podcasts/music. Invited a friend over for dinner like usual and she said she couldn't come until it was late and well past dark, which was very unusual. Then she told me she was at a Superbowl party and that was how I found out what was going on.

Only way things could have been better is if I had D&D with the food.

I was in a similar spot as a manager for years. You can't fix everything but you can improve the conditions for your workers and in my experience, this also was the key to making our store the top in our entire state. They will not always ingratiate you with the higher-ups, but if metrics improve, they will notice and at the bare minimum tolerate you.

A few good things you can do:

• Write glowing recommendations and beg for raises every year. Also make a point to do mentorship to help each worker build their career and skills in the ways they want. You don't always have to put all of this in a review, but if it looks good and they make progress, do it.

• Spend that team building budget every month. Tell your team what it is and ask for their feedback on how they want to use it.

• Ask for input from your team and listen to what they have to say. Be transparent about what is going on, what your goals are, and what limitations you have, then try to find a way to find a place of compromise between those limitations and the feedback your team gives. Again, be open about this and ask what they think of any compromises. They'll often have a better idea of what will work to improve conditions more than you will, particularly if you are open with them about goals and limitations.

• If it's reasonable and safe for you to do so, encourage them to organize themselves into a union. You probably cannot join this, but you don't need to tell your bosses they are organizing until they have done it. You can act as a screen to their efforts until they have the power to demand recognition.