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I'm convinced "The Secret" is the total opposite of how things work, and likely and Op
(hexbear.net)
I've noticed that things I feel optimistic about tend to turn out to be failures, but when I'm pessimistic about things they turn out great.
So lately I've been going into situations assuming the worst, and low and behold things have been coming out better. I interviewed for a job recently, and was really pessimistic about getting it, and I start later this week. I had to help my sister move cross country last month and assumed it'd be a disaster, but it went off almost perfectly.
Turns out the universe is contrarian and will do the opposite of whatever you expect. So if anything us Communists should be MORE Doomer, since it will manifest the revolution happening. It's reverse Infra-Materialism 
Thesis: thinking hard about ideas will change the material world
Antithesis: not thinking hard about ideas also changes the material world?
Synthesis: maybe like, if I stop thinking so hard, I won't be as anxious and screw up things or my retrospective perception of things
Sorry, no snark intended also I know this isn't a real dialectic lol. I have a similar issue where I overthink and thus ruin things for myself. It took a perspective shift to break out of thinking in terms of luck etc.