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I'm convinced "The Secret" is the total opposite of how things work, and likely and Op
(hexbear.net)
I've noticed that things I feel optimistic about tend to turn out to be failures, but when I'm pessimistic about things they turn out great.
So lately I've been going into situations assuming the worst, and low and behold things have been coming out better. I interviewed for a job recently, and was really pessimistic about getting it, and I start later this week. I had to help my sister move cross country last month and assumed it'd be a disaster, but it went off almost perfectly.
Turns out the universe is contrarian and will do the opposite of whatever you expect. So if anything us Communists should be MORE Doomer, since it will manifest the revolution happening. It's reverse Infra-Materialism 
Unironically, sort of my beliefs. I'm basically a DemSoc who has little faith that reform will work. As Capitalism continues and inequality grows while the planet burns, a more drastic change becomes more and more inevitable.
I'm already Doomer on the reform - time to preemptively become Doomer on the revolution!
Btw congrats on the job!
I'd venture a guess that 95% of Marxist-Leninists would prefer to be DemSocs if were simply a matter of personal preference but, of course, MLs are blackpilled on reformism.
I don't think many MLs actually truly want a violent revolution deep down. I think that they see it as the only viable option. When your opt to flip the table, shit gets messy and chaotic and there's no guarantee that your side will prevail.
For about a year before the 2020 primary ended, I was an ML who wanted to believe that there was still a possibility for peaceful reform in the USA. So, basically a demsoc in practice. Seeing Democrats steal Bernie’s delegates right in front of my own eyes changed my mind on that matter quickly and permanently.
100% Bernie changed my mind. A simple campaign of "Healthcare for All" got me thinking, why don't we already have that? Pushed me way to the left when I did more reading (looking at you, Karl). Then Bernie getting fucked over started my reform doomer arc.
A push of reform will gain support for the movement. Reform failing encourages support for a revolution. A threat of revolution makes reform actually possible. These ideologies should go hand in hand but holy fuck do these people normally hate each other.