I'm close to Renewal. The red gem is about to start flashing. So the fiery ritual of Carousel is going to claim me soon enough. I'm at peace with that.

I've also arranged that I have nobody whose existence I'm responsible for that has to contend with the rather depressing future ahead of humanity. (Read: I have not procreated.) So I'm at peace with that as well. If humanity wants to obliterate itself in an orgy of stupidity and greed, that's not my concern.

...

Unless.

...

They choose to do that before my Carousel. So that's my main fear: that humanity will be in such a rush to fuck itself up that my palm won't be blinking before WWIII or whatever starts. That I'll have to witness what I've sadly come to accept as inevitable: the extinction of human civilization and the nigh-extinction of the human species.