durings

good on them, wish more musicians had the guts to follow suit. i've been so disgusted by how "default" spotify has become when it comes to distribution and music discovery...

why do so many people get away with being so vocally "pro-Palestinian" and "anti-genocide" but you work at IBM/Microsoft/PwC/insert other company that directly contributes to the genocide ??? how are you so SHAMELESS?

what's your recipe? do you use a pressure cooker

!!! massive

had a really sad dream where i remembered the last time someone told me i was important to them and that was more than 6 years ago :\ heavy heart. and even that ended up being untrue

there's no way life is supposed to be like this; why is everyone seemingly okay with surface level connections and not questioning anything about the way we live and treat each other

idk as someone who worked multiple jobs with kids the "stare" usually means you as an adult are not engaging enough

also seen plenty of millenials genX and boomers do this same "stare" when you say something they don't want to comprehend

yeah honestly i don't find it any different from people who become cops because they think they're one of the good ones who will change the system. acknowledging any level of legitimacy of the illegal amerikkkan occupation and engaging within its systems in any fashion will never ever lead to revolution, and americans have their heads so far up their asses they really think that electing the right trendy people is "progress"

colonialism is when red percentage numbers and dark colors

now lets make one of indigenous populations on turtle island

having a really hard time coping with loneliness and facing the facts that people would rather be friends with people who are agreeable, passive, and "easy to digest" at best, and literal SAers and fascists at worse, over me. they may even complain about these "friendships" to me and then continue to invest more time in them.

hard to trust peoples words at all anymore. i don't want to live like this. maybe it's actually a blessing that i have no attachments to this place community wise

ibrahim traore thank you for inspiring me when no one else does

personally, i find it hard to care for myself when i'm not being cared for from others. not that i need someone all the time (very used to the solitude atp); it just makes me feel like "what's the point?", like the tree in the forest thing, why does it matter if i'm in shape or taking care of my hygiene or improving as a person if no one is there to even notice or acknowledge it?

i used to believe in the "do it for yourself" mentality but that's the same mentality that led to me being completely isolated. these days i've built enough resilience to continue healthy habits and take care of myself more than i used to, mainly out of spite, and i try to consider my life experience and body/mind/soul just part of my life 'experiment' that i'll see through to the end just so i can have a good laugh about it before it's all over.

and when you realize it's poisoned and that if you keep drinking it you'll only get sicker, you are ostracized for questioning the source, people feel insulted because they'd rather keep drinking the poisoned water because that's what they're used to doing and everyone else does it and now you're forced to find a clean well somewhere else instead of just banding together and cleaning out the well you already have.