Asklemmy

The mixture of the racing thoughts that come with hyperactivity plus my own attachment issues derived from a difficult and physically abusive childhood have made me someone who gets easily triggered by even a semblance of disregard or lack of kindness, and then I start yelling... I've had to consciously change my understanding of the world and I'm still trying to properly use the mental tools required to stop/slow the negative thoughts that end in me getting upset. The one lady I fell for and dated years before I met my now wife broke up with me because of my anger and proclivity for starting arguments, after all. Outside of relationships, I used to pick fights at the slightest indication of perceived danger/disrespect, something I had to get out of my system as well to live in society. In my defense, being in the FFL for 5 years was not helpful in trying to push down/recalibrate my aggression. But, with my wife's help, I've managed to reach a 'healthy' and stable point in my life, and I'm sharing this today so y'all don't lose hope. 🙏❤️