RainaIsRaining

joined 1 year ago

Thank you ❤️🫂

[–] RainaIsRaining@lemmy.blahaj.zone 6 points 6 days ago (2 children)

Thanks :3

I'm not entirely sure what a feral hedge witch is, but it does sound awesome.

Thank you :3 ❤️ 🫂

 

So I texted my mom last night that I think it's likely that I have autism. Then she texted back that she has always suspected that I have autism since I was little kid and that she loves me. I felt very validated and happy that it went better than expected although somewhat upset that she never did anything to help me.

However this morning I woke up to a text from her insisting that I don't actually have autism and I'm just lazy and over sensitive and that I need to get over myself and I have spent a lot of time crying in bed today.

[TW: Transphobia]

She's done this before which is why I was so nervous to tell her. When I came out to her as a trans woman she initially said nice things to me, but then the next day she started ranting about "why couldn't you just be a gay man" or "no one will ever love you if you're trans." It took her several years to come around and actually accept me.

All I really wanted from her was understanding, but she just gave me a lot of self-doubt and sadness instead.

Edit: Thank you all for your support, I really appreciate it ❤️🫂

Thanks for your reply. I agree with you about labels. It'd just be nice to know what's going on with me so I can deal with it more effectively.

I always take time everyday to just think about and process stuff, which is where I think my self awareness comes from. When it comes to alexithymia, I have difficulties with identifying the emotions of strangers, but when it comes to people I know well I do just fine I think. I also feel I can identify and describe my own feelings well. So I don't think I have much if any alexithymia.

Thanks ♥️♥️♥️

It has really helped to get this off my chest and to hear that my experience is not invalid. I feel like I can start moving forward with trying to heal

Thanks ♥️ It has helped to get this of my chest and I feel like I can start moving forward now with trying to heal

[–] RainaIsRaining@lemmy.blahaj.zone 4 points 7 months ago (1 children)

Aw thanks ♥️ I was really worried about sharing this because I had no idea how people would react. Your reply really means a lot to me. 🫂

Thank you for giving actually good advice! :)

[–] RainaIsRaining@lemmy.blahaj.zone 14 points 1 year ago (1 children)

That seems like an excessive comment to give to a noobie who is just trying to be safe. Also I recently became an adult so I'm basically a baby. I can't really just not be one unless I sit and wait for a while.