Jake_Farm

I've come to the conclusion that the only people who would want to date me would be people who are equally as much of a fucking mess as me. Not sure how to find them but what else is new.

Was your father a wealthy member of the party?

He murdered someone in front of his daughter?! God damn, she's gonna need a lot of therapy.

This was 100% murder how do you accidentally: drive in the bike lane over a curb, run over his foot, back up, then run over the rest of him, and drive away before police arrive. I hope they throw the book at the driver.

Doesn't Vampire: The Masquerade have a sci-fi element?

I do all of these things. Is that a sign?

Thank you for such in-depth answers. I know for certain that I am nowhere near the depths of my depression. When I was at my worst I was numbing all of my emotions to avoid the anxiety and feeling of failure. And while recently my mood has been more unstable, that is directly linked to a change of meds for a physical health issue. My life is by no means drama free and it hasn't made me catatonic yet. Anxious, sure, but I am not constantly dwelling on it. I certainly could be at a better quality of life, it would require drastic changes to my living situation which while are doable eventually I think. Honestly, I think anxiety might be more of a barrier for me than depression. Not that depression doesn't make everything harder, but is more of a sign that I am not living a fulfilling life.

Be the game

I mean it sounds like you are describing someone who is selfish that demands much and returns little of those around them. I don't believe I do that. But you are saying I will if I don't figure out my self esteem issues before hand?

Thank you, I am saving this, it is a good quote.

Maybe not but they are highly comorbid. And having depression get in the way of a lot of my goal took a toll on my self esteem.

At this point I don't think there will ever be a cure given how long I have lived with it. Part of me wants to date so that there is something humanly normal about my life, another part stays up late at night wishing there was someone to hug me when Im sad and someone to share my music, memes, and fan theories with, and part is just amorous I think. I'm not experienced enough with dating to even know how to avoid codependence. I haven't been in such a relationship but I also would know what to look for other than not have low self esteem.