CatDogL0ver

I have a pendent that is made of the ashes of my best friend. I carry him around all the times. He unfortunately left me unexpectedly a few years ago.

Today, I can't bear to take him with me to work. I have been feeling so ashamed at work. I hope he understands.

Just venting. Please don't send me any self help message. I am not thinking of it.

Update: Thank you for all your kind words. I am now crying in my car reading your comments in my work's garage. My shift starts soon. I am going to dry my face first and think about resignation.

I feel so awful. I have multiple panic attacks. I want to cry. My body feels like it is not mine. I want to quit but my legs are like noodles. I can't even get up.

I know it is all in my head (perhaps) but I really think people don't trust me anymore. I don't trust myself too.

Please don't send me any self harm alert. I am not thinking about that. I just want to vent.

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Today I googled the meaning of the song "Alicia" in Clair Obscur and it reminded me of my best friend who is no longer with me.

All the songs in the game have meanings. "Gustave" is another song that I lament about. It tells of how I feel about the important people in my life who are no longer with me.

This game has such intricate story. I know these characters are fictional. As the fox in Le Petite Prince says, "if you tame me, then we shall need each other. To me, you will be unique in all the world... I shall know the sound of a step that will be different from all the others. Other steps send me hurrying back underneath the ground. Yours will call me, like music, out of my burrow."

My cats loved it. So warm.

She got scared so ~~early~~ easily and we tried putting a thunder shirt on her.