Made it 24 hours then had four beers before bed. Gonna try again tomorrow.
:-/
Overall, could be worse, but it honestly needs to get back to zero, ever.
I have a problem. I accept it.
Hopefully four hoppy IPA weren't enough to have me sweating and shaking in the morning. I have a cystoscopy scheduled in 13 hours, which is bad enough without worrying about withdrawals. Not to mention work in 7 hours. At least I get to take 5mg diazepam as prescribed before the procedure, for anxiety and relaxing muscles, but it will have the side effect of helping with withdrawal related symptoms, which should be low with the amount I slowly consumed this evening. I have a lot going on the next few days, and the drinking is worrying me. Got to clean the house more for the daughter's eighth grade graduation ice cream party the next day, got the future wife's daughters (actual niece, her mom died) T-ball game, and before that her other daughters softball practice. That's all after work and a camera down my junk to check and make sure the bladder cancer didn't come back. Oh, and my ex wife is supposed to be coming into town tomorrow (today, it's 1am) for our daughters graduation that's the next day, with her new bf, but might not be able to make it unless I get her 50 bucks for gas. Apparently her bf is having trouble siphoning out enough gas of her shitty old RV to get her mom's shitty old van up here from her off grid property.
So much stress. I'm not religious, but if you are, fucking pray for me bruh.
I wanna get to 48 next run. Hopefully more.
At least I have Saturday off lol