Mental Health

Ignore those that don't agree with your plans. Never let folk impose their morality on you.

You want to go to college? What do you want to study?

Life can throw you some bad cards all at once at times. Solving those little problems can make it less overwhelming and more manageable.

Attraction is a subjective thing. You build a life you're happy and confident in and people will find that attractive. Looking at your picture, I would be amazed if you didn't find someone attracted to you. Be patient, it'll come.

The hormones has been pointed out as possibly having an impact. Maybe give yourself a few months break to see how you feel, then go again. I'm not advocating stopping or quitting, just a pause to tackle a few other life issues before going on with your journey. Life is a marathon and not a sprint and sometimes a rest helps get through that next bit.

Also, sometimes anti-depressants can help at the lowest times. Worth considering. Counselling could be better if it's something you can get access to.

Hi, if you're in Canada, I'd be happy to lend you an ear. Everybody's valuable and I'd be sad if there was indication that you'd followed through.
Feel free to pm me as well. All the best

How do you afford a gun? In this economy‽

Hopefully, I'm not too late. What you're going through sucks and there's some really valid advice in some of the other comments. I urge you to take the time to read through them and consider them. I'd like to come at it from a different perspective.

Be a selfish asshole: take care of yourself first, take care of the people and things that are important to you next. Fuck everyone and everything else! The world belongs to you as much as anyone else. You're here. You matter. Don't let other circumstances or people take that away from you.

I could tell you to think about your family, your friends, your pets...all the people who would miss you if you follow through on this. Those are important considerations but at the end-of-the-day, those are secondhand things. You are the center! You get to define your own worth and don't let anyone tell you differently. If someone tells you that you're not worth it, tell them they're full of shit. Then walk away.

Sometimes life can be a struggle. Other times, it just plain sucks. But it's your life. You get to choose how you deal with the bad stuff. I'm hoping you choose to live and fight on. Read the other comments. Most (all?) of us have been in dark places at some point but we're still here. You can be too.

A bottle of helium and sitting up in a garbage bag eg in a car is painless and easy. You can also do it somewhere you will be found by someone you don’t care about.