My son will be 13 months on the 16th. This evening has been particularly rough. It started with my pom escaping the fence during dinner. So I had to interrupt my son eating and go collect my dog. Then he decided he didn't want to finish eating or basically even start eating. I put him in the bath since that always helps. It helped until I took him out.
So I was trying to get him dressed for bed since he was just absolutely tired. Well while wrestling him to get a diaper on. He keeps alligator rolling. I just snapped and yelled at him. But he was so focused on his own screaming that he didn't even flinch.
I feel like a failure. After that I finally succeeded in getting a diaper on him then. Tried to nurse him to sleep like we usually do. NOPE. continued to scream and fight sleep. After about 10 minutes, I gave up and just put him in the crib. He fought sleep for another 5 minutes then crashed.
Earlier I checked him for a fever or anything physical that needed medical attention. He was just exhausted ๐
I just feel horrible. I never wanted to yell like that at him ๐ญ
The fact that you recognize this is huge. The feelings you have now will help motivate patience in the future. Unfortunately not all parents have the same self awareness as you. Take this as a learning experience and commit to being the good parent you truly are. Nobody is perfect.
There are two types of parents: those who never say a bad word about their kids and those who admit to periodically wanting to put the tiny human in a drawer and close it.
The first group is lying.
Chill, it's normal. Kids that age are beyond exhausting at times, so just do your best.
Sincerely Someone with a 17 month old
My kid was a very colicky baby. Parenting is rough. The fact that you feel like a bad parent means you are most definitely not a bad parent.
Take it easy on yourself, I'm sure your boy won't even remember it. As long as the kid is alive at the end of the day, your doing a great job :)