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Not sure I have had a migraine, but I have been taking nearly 700-1000mg of caffeine a day because I am so burnt out, and I have no end in sight. I'm trying to detox from caffeine for at least a week now because I keep having headaches no matter how much caffeine I take (on top of my stimulant). I have no paid time off, I have to work on holidays to be financially stable, and I am struggling so much. I'm so bored out of my mind at work, and I come home super tired and spend literal years doing a single step in any of my hobbies that I am trying to build into something that financially supports me. I spend most of the time at work hiding in the bathroom, and somehow they don't fire me for coming to work a couple hours late every single day for the past couple years (I am making up my hours after work, also staying late to avoid the horrible traffic).

I totally relate to how he feels and how he struggles in this video. I relate to the guilt and the frustration of struggling to do things I could easily do when I was younger. I feel like we are connected by morphic resonance because he tends to make videos specifically at the time I am facing a similar issue.

I think I should join an Autism support group.

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submitted 8 months ago* (last edited 8 months ago) by Imnecomrade@lemmygrad.ml to c/neurodiversity@lemmygrad.ml
 
 

cross-posted from: https://hexbear.net/post/2680566

As an AuDHD person, the college dropout story is relatable to me, except for the YouTube career success. I grew up in a madhouse during my traumatic childhood, and going to college free from my backwards, overprotective, overly strict parents was essentially like falling off a cliff. I was already burnt out during my last year of high school, and I was too excited with the freedom and ended up wasting time playing video games and skipping classes regularly because I had little energy to function as an adult. I still struggle with burnout to this day due to being an overworked IT contractor for years.

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submitted 11 months ago* (last edited 11 months ago) by Imnecomrade@lemmygrad.ml to c/neurodiversity@lemmygrad.ml
 
 

I believe the detail-oriented point is not entirely true for all autistic people as I have seen various autists have polar opposite strengths/weaknesses, which include being dominantly big-picture-oriented. It is true for me, though.

As a programmer/Gentoo user, abstraction in code is frustrating to me, thus I tend to go into rabbit holes attempting to understand every single function that is obscured from me, which has led me to wasting a lot of time tinkering and debugging to accomplish very simple tasks all because I wanted to use a very specific toolset or feature. It's difficult for me to accept the big picture idea if I cannot explain some vague anomaly that isn't documented and only discoverable in the source code of the program or one of its dependencies.

I am really happy to see Tristram Oaten (NoBoilerplate) not negating the importance of collective action in this video even though the video is more self-help focused. I also enjoy his narrator voice, and I love his Lost Terminal podcast and his educational programming content.

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With so many disorder Tiktoks around I can't help but fail to spot the difference between having actual ADHD vs just having poor focus habits.

I myself have trouble focusing on tasks but I doubt I actually have ADHD given the recent surge of disorder Tiktoks - tho I do have autism - and that my focus is typically normal on tasks I devote to like gaming.

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I want to get more involved with organising, but fear that due to my autism I will just be a burden. I'm bad in social interactions and get overstimulated quickly.

It's also hard to make connections as well as an autistic person and when I go to socialist meetings I always gravitate towards the people I already know and when they aren't there I feel somewhat left out.

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For my autistic comrades out there. I'm going through autistic burnout myself.

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cross-posted from: https://hexbear.net/post/626872

Let me know if you can read the article in full.

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Content Warning: food disorders and non-vegan food. Also a bunch of anecdotal pseudoscience on my part.

Prefacing this by saying that besides being autistic, I also have ADHD and mild lactose intolerance.

There's this common saying that food affects mental health, but I feel that most people don't actually delve into how that affects hypersensitive people. It's not just some ethereal gut-to-brain communication, in my experience the simple physical feeling of being too full or a bit hungry, or having slow digestion due to fatty food can be very distracting and even impact my mood. This is even part of my crackpot theory that autistic people aren't actually that much more susceptible to lactose intolerance, only that it's more noticeable as all my lactose intolerant NT acquaintances only notice that something is wrong when getting severely sick.

And on the other hand, it's a well known fact that fatty foods, sweets and milk derivatives can be very addictive. Couple that with their mass production and marketing, as well as being shaped, textured and flavoured in a way that seems intent on catching as many autistic people, and you get yourself a brand new addiction.

Now in the case of my country, it turns out that those aren't actually the cheapest food, unlike the USA. Fruits, vegetables, and their derivatives are actually much cheaper. That means that, when buying something from McDonald's, I harm both my physical and mental health as well as my wallet. There is no benefit to it except for the short-lived pleasure of bland paste-like burgers and fake cheddar cream. Technically I enjoy bland pasty food, but I already make my own soylent-like paste meal which is much cheaper and healthier. Then why do I keep buying it, specially in stressful times? The answer is clearly addiction.

Obviously I'm not the first one to point out that industrial fast food is addictive (just google "McDonald's Addictive"), but I want to make a broader point here. It is not only addictive, but socially normalised to the point where it is 1)legal, 2)heavily marketed and 3)enforced on children. There is no stigma to eating industrial fast food, in fact it's treated as some reward or place for celebration for families with children. And now with giant delivery app corporations, every time one tries to get some normal meal, the big M (or their siblings such as Subway or KFC) is there with yet another sale (that isn't even that cheap) enticing you to let opium burgers into your home. It is exploitative to the factory workers, the kitchen staff, the deliverypeople, but also to every person with poor impulse control, which I suspect is a large portion of their clients.

In fact, before I uninstalled the app iFood (our version of Uber Eats), it seemed to know exactly at which days of the week and time I'd be the most stressed, and therefore susceptible to their marketing. What began as a cool way to get cheap meals became a money and health sink. This is so obviously predatory, and yet I can't even think of how to express it to people aren't already autistic commies like me, and how that clown Ronald should definitely get the wall.

I hyperbolically propose that the "junk food" addiction epidemic is comparable to the alcohol or other drug epidemics of the past, but still gets a pass because NT people are often completely unaware of how their brains (or ours) can easily be exploited by this shit. I've walked towards a chain while being fully convinced that I was only harming myself, but eaten there anyways, and I'm pretty sure this is a telltale addiction sign. Quitting coffee was much easier than this.

Food is one of the most basic human necessities. We should not, as the most developed animal society in the world, be fighting against our own sources of food to maintain our survival. And that is not even getting into how this food is intentionally put into a situation of fake scarcity to keep profits high despite all the hunger and food insecurity.

I'm trying to gather all energy so that I can to drop literally every industrial food and live off of only grains, beans, rices, tubers and a fuckton of fruit (and maybe some eggs if the vegan police doesn't nab me). That is what peak performance looks like, as every creator divinity intended us to be. Except they didn't consider you can make it pasty (and therefore superior) with a pressure cooker.

TL;DR: Every fast food CEO and stockholder should be locked in a prison where the only thing they have to eat is deep-fried hamburgers, while surrounded by multiple colourful photoshopped pictures of those same burgers. Let's see how they enjoy it then.

Feel free to add your own perspectives, specially if they contradict mine (and even more so if you're also neurodiverse) so I can get a bigger picture.

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Title. I'm an Autist and an activist within my region, and have seen regularly that when I try to bring up the struggles of Autistic and Neurodiverse groups, that they are dismissed softly. Usually the same expression as you can see them holding back on saying something, and quietly dismissing what you're talking about, and often quietly putting down our requests for events like what is done to elevate the issues and concerns of racialized groups, gender oppressed groups, and so on.

I've so consistently encountered it that I'm writing stuff to confront this, and I wanna hear other folks' experiences with this, what factors they've seen, approaches they've taken, etc.

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submitted 2 years ago* (last edited 2 years ago) by KrupskayaPraxis@lemmygrad.ml to c/neurodiversity@lemmygrad.ml
 
 

Don't let me be the only one

*autistic

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I watched this video that comrade YouTube algorithm recommended me and it resonated a lot with me, especially when the person said that "others may withdraw completely, hiding from social situations [...] so that nothing can be seen therefore nothing can be criticized."

Lately I've been watching videos about ADHD and ASD and finally having explanations for my everyday struggles feels like a huge boulder has been lifted from my shoulders.

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I've only watched a few videos so far, but it has explained a lot of my struggles. I thought maybe other people will find this useful.

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Two decades before Asperger and Kanner, Sukhareva was researching autism in children. Her contributions were likely not acknowledged because of her Jewish heritage.

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I just feel useless. I don't think there's any value in me. When the revolution comes that'll become even more apparent.

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submitted 3 years ago* (last edited 3 years ago) by mrcat@lemmygrad.ml to c/neurodiversity@lemmygrad.ml
 
 

how do i make it stop. people say anything out of the social norms is autistic

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submitted 3 years ago* (last edited 3 years ago) by teddymarx@lemmygrad.ml to c/neurodiversity@lemmygrad.ml
 
 

autism sucks it is a disease that should be rid with eugenics is what i think sometimes. i suck at being social(i fear social rejection) this makes me depressed which makes suicidal which makes me order a rope. unfortunately i have told people about this in the past and they take away my means to kill. this them causes me to cut myself to distract myself from the pain of loosing friends due to "school rules" cutting hurts a lot how do i stop this cycle the worse bit about his is that i never get a chance to kill myself i have no one to reach out to

btw i don't have access to a phone and there are people in house who will judge and hurt me for calling a suicide hotline

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every day of my life is pain i suck at being social i will say one thing and mean another. i made some friends only to have them taken away from me due the rule saying all teachers are monsters my parents drugged i thought i could trust them i am still living with them when will this pain will only end when i kill myself. then i will be in blissful non-existence i also spend my of most days depressed because of all this

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i have autism. no one in my life lets me know whats happening in my life. in 2018 a psychiatrist said it was okay if my family secretly drugged me they put Risperidone in my drinks. what i am trying to say is no one treats me like a human being with there own goals and dreams. this cause's me to want to kill myself for being a failure to everyone around me how do i escape this

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I'm not that romantic image of an autistic person the media paints. I'm not a walking-talking mental calculator who can recite π to a 1000 places. I'm not "walking Wikipedia" as a classmate called me.

I might have a way with learning unnecessary things, but y'all know what? The NTs don't care. A proper well-adjusted neurotypical adult is gonna win with me most of the time. Because while they can easily study the topic, I can't exactly easily study being "normal".

Autism is not that quirky thing like "Oh, I too might have autism because I like trains and hate people". It's an everyday struggle. A black pill I'm swallowing near every day, seeing how the deck was stacked against me from the start. Another job I feel stressed out at and on the verge of losing it. Sometimes I just can't. Sometimes I wonder whether it'd be easier for me if I just did not have a diagnosis and just thought there is something wrong with my behavior and my parents...